The View of a Fragile Mind

I just spent most of my night: tailoring five dresses that were too big for me in the bust area. No longer are they too baggy on me!

Anonymous asked: dif anon than the 1 who asked that last question but u r controdicting urself. all u do on this blog + ur last is post pics of urself so it is hard to believe that u "have a hard time posting/taking pics of urself". + there is no need to be so rude to that other anon he/she was asking a sincere question... u really r arrogant. he/she asked a question and was clearly looking for help so sweet of u to verbally bitch slap them. wow.

I’m not being arrogant. I was telling them when it comes to my health issues (and questions about) I prefer not to talk about said issues to open place. I’d prefer if said questions were kept more privet. And I did say I have hard days, and other days are fine. Hard days I have my own personal struggles and issues. On days when I post photos of myself I can’t really explain how I’m feeling or my reasoning for my ED is not negatively controlling my feelings towards my looks; other than that I just am not thinking about it. I answered their question as honestly and as openly as I am willing to. I don’t have answers for problems an situations I’m still questioning, doubting, and searching for. I’m not being arrogant with these questions or “botch slapping” anyone, all I am doing is answering personal base questions as comfortably as I can, instead of being rude and ignoring them.

Anonymous asked: i followed your last blog and i know that you stated that you suffered from an ed/went to recovery. my question for you is (and please dont take this as something negitive, because i have been suffering from anorxica for 15yrs so i ask this with care) but how do you find it in yourself to post so many pictures of yourself? as in how do you sinlence the "eating disorder voice" and take a pic of yourself? i cant do this, i've never been able to/have others take my pic etc. thank you, and again..

Well for future asks, I’d rather (when it comes to Ed topics) for it to be discussed on a more personal level. I won’t post any questions to my blog but I rather talk directly. I have a lot of trouble posting and taking photos of myself. I prefer not to have my body photographed. But I’ve spent my time in rehab clinics in residential care and in PHP. I just got over it in some aspects. Some days I am greatly effected and can’t stand how I look because I feel rather upset with myself. But I try to take advantage of days that I feel alright . I hope with the struggle you are going through; you’re able to take ahold of the good days for being what try are. I don’t really have any advice I can put down in writing for you since I am still trying to figure this battle out for myself. It’s different for everyone though. But take it a day at a time. If you want to talk more in depth I be happy to, I just prefer not to be talking to someone who is on anon, and the only way I can respond on Ed issues is publicly.